Empty T.T

Everyone out there, have their aims for their life,

what's my aim then?

I don't even figure it out yet...

Difference routes and choices are there for us to make and choose,

so what else should I requesting for?

I'm so lose...

I don't hope all this would lead you guys into a negative thoughts,

but if I'm, I apologize here..

I have no way to express out my feelings but here,

hope those who read this would understand me...

I saw many people around me live happily,

but why I can't?

Hopes inside their heart,

but where is mine?

Sometimes I do expect something from people around me,

what I expect is not an object, money, food or any substances that human needs,

I don't need all that,

what I expect is just a CARE,

that's all I want..

Unfortunately, people around me might not do what I expects,

they are human too,

they needs what I need too,

Why they can stand up and handle it without any pains?

How actually they made it?

I need guidance, I really need it very much,

but who is willing to help me? T.T

My friends taught me all the time,

but I'm kind of wasting their time,

because I didn't change at all..

I'm sicked in that..

Sometime I request for something better,

am I wrong? am I greedy?

but I don't mean that at all...

I'm really sad,

because sometimes people might thought I'm greedy and take for granted..

I'm sorry if I made you feels like that..

I really don't know which way is the correct way,

which way is the way you all wish to get...

I do not expect you to understand who am I,

but I'm sorry, because I really don't know what am I supposed to do...

Is it requesting is not allowed in human?

Asking more does it means greedy or taking for granted?

Can't human request for better life?

Well, I'm sure there is no exact answer for my stupid questions ..

I'm really hope I know what should I do,

I'm really hope what I do will not hurt anyone anymore,

because I'm really tired to handle it myself,

I felt like I'm so weak...

Expecting ?

This will make you even hurts...

this is ridiculous...

Please, wake up and smell the coffee nuts (I means me) ...